I have been looking for that Yellow Brick Wall...I haven't slammed into lately! Well...I found it this morning. Yay!!! Feels so much like home...the wonderful feeling of my face smashing into it...that gut wrenching stomach pain...oh how I have missed it! What brought that on today???? Well I was basically asked by my family to solve all the worlds problems before 9am! Yeah..I don't function well before then...A....and B...one particular family member seemed to push me into rather than lead me to that wall. Oh well...at least it feels like home. I think I will just sit next to the wall for awhile before I get up this time...I will probably end up getting slammed into again fairly soon anyway :)
What I am discovering, however, is that if I turn this wall into Jesus...which I already know I should do, its just much harder in action than words...life is grand. When my problems are chasing me down, instead of slamming into that wall at 90mph, look up and what do you know...JESUS! Ahhhhhhh...that doesn't hurt nearly as much as brick, and I don't ruin my clothes with yellow paint. Seems win-win to me...so why is it so freakin hard?????? Is it because I don't really trust that He will work everything out for my good??? Did He not promise me plans for a future and a hope?(Jer29:11) I know He loves me immensely, so why not just hand it all over? I don't know...I really don't. What can I say? I am a work in progress, and while I'm not where I should be...THANK GOD I'm not where I used to be :)
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