Ok...so...
I look around at everyone else's totally awesome, pumped up, whacked out, cracked out, glitzy, glamorous and amazing blogs, and I get not just a smidge self-conscience, but down right embarrassed. It's like a whole other universe, and obviously I am the alien. You go to one blog, and you see amazing recipes and these fantastic craft ideas....what????? Who has time for crafts????? Then you click on a link from that blog and you get to one that has these incredibly pictures...and art! Lots of it! You just get these warm and fuzzy feelings from the mere layout of these blogs....and please.....DON'T GET ME WRONG!!!!
I just sit and stare in amazement. Actually you could probably call it more of a stalker-type obsession. They are so beautiful...so perfectly planned out. I read them and the words speak to me so strongly. I laugh with them, I cry with them. I empathize and understand. I want to call them and tell them all of my feelings about what they just wrote.
Now before you go thinking I am some crazy creeper person who needs to get a life, please know that I have one. An extremely busy one at that. I don't spend every waking hour at the computer gawking at the blog community. I am just in awe of the creativity of others. Back to that crazy busy life of my own....
I have a this husband, whom I met and married almost 10 years ago...I will reveal the story of our 4 and a half month engagement later :).....who is truly the love of my life. Through thick and thin, sickness and health, he is wonderful. And from this beautiful love, came these wonderful children...5 of them to be exact. Except only 3 of them live in our house. We have 2 precious little angel babies dancing in Heaven. They are dancing because they know they saved their mommy's life. More on that later too....The 3 that we care for, however, keep me plenty busy! At ages 7, 5, and 4, I often sit back and wonder how all three of those miraculous little beings came from the same gene pool. Oh, they look alike, but their BIG personalities couldn't be more different. I have the teacher-type...I say teacher-type because it just sounds nicer than Miss Bossy-Pants. You get the idea....And my middle child...she lives in a world that the creature from Horton hears a who describes perfectly "...where everyone is a pony, and they all eat rainbows and poop butterflies..." And then there's the boy...THE BOY....yep...that describes him. But somehow he manages to melt my heart with every move he makes.
My family is the reason I get out of bed every morning...and that is not an easy thing for me to do. I giggle at the things they say and do. I cry because they frustrate me at times. They keep me busy and give me a reason to relax all at the same time. They keep me on my toes and that's good because I
have a tendency to get complacent. Everyday is different because of them. And it's wonderful.
God is my rock, and although my world has been shaken more than enough times in my opinion, He has never failed. Ever. When I take a 3rd person perspective of my life, I am jealous :) And living this life, I am thankful. Oh so very thankful.....From the desires of my heart to the husband I have to the children we were given...and taken away...to the job I love to the friends who keep me sane...I am thankful.
I probably will never reach fame because of this blog, but I am gonna do it anyway. And while my layout might not bring warm fuzzies to all who look at it, it's mine, and it's inspired by the ones I love, and the one's who love me. That's why it's the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. And why when I look at other's blogs I am amazed...theirs too are inspired by the ones they love, and the one's who love them...they draw their fabulous creativity from their days filled with belly laughs and scraped-knee tears. Grilled cheese lunches, and chicken noodle dinners. The tuck me in one more time and leave the hall light on goodnights. And....
You are an amazing blogger! Why? Because you are an amazing writer!!!!
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